Many hands, light work

The gardens are booming.  Every day the heads of cabbage grow larger, the number of kale leaves multiply, and the peapods grow plumper still.  Honestly, it’s a little overwhelming!  But I just think about how lucky we are to be blessed with such abundance.  We’ve already begun preserving food for the leaner months--freezing shelled peas, lactofermenting garlic scapes, making strawberry jam.  But soon will come a day when we’ll really struggle to keep up with eating, selling, and preserving the harvest.  Thankfully, right about that time we’ll be joined by a couple interns, whose helping hands in the garden, the kitchen, and the farmers market, and whose participation at mealtimes, will make a big difference.  

We’ve also been blessed these past couple weeks to have a lot of help from volunteers.  Cathy and Nick each stayed with us for a whole week, volunteering their time to help us in the garden.  And in addition to them, we’ve had the help of other guests who stayed just a day or two, as well.  Here’s a partial list of what we were all able to accomplish, in large part to their help:

  • Broadforked and prepped tomato, pepper, eggplant, basil, and bean beds;
  • Planted 30 tomato, 20 pepper, and 20 eggplant plants; 
  • Seeded 12 beds of dry beans, and 3 beds of bush and pole beans;
  • Planted 4 beds of sweet potatoes; 
  • Potted 5 greenhouse pepper plants;
  • Hilled potatoes;
  • Weeded, weeded, weeded!

Needless to say, it’s been a busy couple of weeks, but much more manageable thanks to all the help!  As Sister Carol Bernice exclaimed the other day, “There is nothing better than working together in the garden!”  And it’s true--especially when you’re tiring and despairing that you can continue for even one more minute.  Having someone there by your side can lift your spirits, and get you to push yourself that little bit harder.  And suddenly, you find a new rhythm, a new burst of energy, and you’re back in the flow again.  You realize that you can do more, with others.

This is something that we need to realize more broadly, all across America.  One of the things that’s been striking--besides the horrifying pictures of oil-drenched wildlife--about the disaster in the Gulf is the sense of frustration and powerlessness expressed by so many.  People are asking, “What can we do?”  Besides sheer rage at the rapaciousness of the oil industry and the ineffectualness of the government, many are floundering in a mix of disgust, cynicism, and helplessness.  One friend wrote on Facebook: “Need to buy gas.  BP on one corner, Exxon and Lukoil on the others.  Feeling dirty already.”  

What does this have to do with working together in the garden?  Well, quite a lot, I think.  Our feelings of powerlessness in the face of corporate malfeasance and insufficient government action have to do, at least in part, with the fact that we are, all too often, reduced to being simply consumers in this society.  So we’re left with few choices--asking unsatisfying questions, like: Which oil giant is less problematic to patronize?  And our consumption takes many forms:  We consume heartbreaking pictures, ugly political jousting, and still more and more oil, plastic, and petrochemicals.  And we feel sick, and isolated.

The good news is that there are things that we can do in the face of such enormous problems.  We all know we can take small individual steps--reduce how much we drive and fly, carpool and take public transit.  Reduce how much plastic we buy, recycle and reuse what we can.  Buy organic, buy local.  All these are good things.  We can also act as citizens--write our elected leaders, support environmental and good government groups.  Sign petitions.  Attend rallies. Divest of oil and petrochemical company stocks.

But I find that it can be hard to do all these things on the individual level, because it feels so small in the face of such giant challenges.  It’s one thing to do such things on an individual level, and another to tackle these actions--and to go further--with a community of others.  Working together as a group can help us hold each other to the values we profess.  We can help each other find solutions, share any extra work created by eschewing the easy way.  There is power in numbers.

But more than power, there’s spirit, there's light.  There is spirit and life and light in shared endeavors, and that’s what we all need right now.  I’m most heartened by a movement that I’ve mentioned in earlier postings, called “Transition,” or “Transition Town.”  The idea is that people in local communities come together to figure out how “collectively we can use our creativity and ingenuity to design pathways that reduce our dependence on fossil fuels.”  This movement began in the United Kingdom, but has been spreading across the US in the last couple of years.  You can look at the Transition US site to find local working groups near you.  

What happens in Transitioning communities is, over time, working groups design and implement plans to “power down” from fossil fuels, and to instead build energy capacity through diversified renewable sources.  As part of this process, communities find ways to secure the supply lines for food and other staple goods through increasing local production.  And some towns have even created their own local currency to encourage residents to support local businesses, rather sending their money to far-flung multinationals (see the Totnes Pound http://totnes.transitionnetwork.org/totnespound/home).

Just the other day, the NY Times featured a story on “collapsitarians,” those folks who believe that we’re due for an economic collapse or an environmental catastrope (or both) that will radically affect, if not destry, our way of life.  I have to admit to fear-driven phases, when I’ve found this way of thinking awfully tempting.  “Doomers” have the strangely relieving position of being able to critique the whole system, forecast collapse, and either build bunkers or throw up their hands in futility.  

I think it’s harder, but ultimately the more life-enhancing path, to throw my lot in with the Transition folks.  To believe that we can come together at the local level, and that we can make real change.  The truth is, many people are doing it, in many places, already.  So the choice is ours--will we throw up our hands, sigh in frustration, and assuage the pain with work, drink, or entertainment?  Or will we step outside a little bit, find the others, and start something new?  I can attest that when we work together, we can do much more than we think we can.  When we work together, we can be creators, rather than consumers.  We can be designers, rather than dependents.  And we can feel the light, the flow of life, the spirit all around us. 

 

Tell me, what is it you plan to do 

with your one wild and precious life?

--The Summer Day, Mary Oliver

The "back-story" of the harvest

It's harvest time.  The Asian greens we started from seed on February 20th, transplanted on March 6th, and planted out into the garden on April 3rd, are ready for harvest!  They're huge, gorgeous, and absolutely delicious. 

And we've got a lot of them.  We had the idea of planting Asian greens for farmers market in "succession," meaning that each week we'd start a bunch of seeds, and then, later on, we'd be able to harvest a new group of plants for each week's farmers market.  It's a great idea, but we got our timing a little messed up--we started them a few weeks too soon:  there are whole rows that are ready now, but farmers market doesn't start until mid-June.  So we've got some bok choi, tat soi, arugula, and mizuna to spare!

Anne brought a few heads of bok choi down to the city, and sold them right away to a few of her coworkers.  I've been a'googling, and found delicious recipes for kim chee (a spicy fermented cabbage dish, a staple in Korean cuisine) and for lactofermented bok choi, which is kind of like sauerkraut.  So we're going to have a busy day harvesting and chopping, chopping, chopping up these greens.  What a lovely problem to have: abundance!

 

We'd had the row covers on until very recently, which helped protect our crops during those crazy windy days in early May.  But we finally pulled off the last of the row covers last week, and were just giddy at the flourishing plants we found underneath.  I suppose we shouldn't be surprised--we've been nurturing them for months, and they're not tricky to grow.  But still it is kind of a wonder to see them in the harvest basket.  It might seem like a simple thing: a head of greens.  But there is an immense "back story" of care and attention that goes into making that tiny seed into a pound of delicious, nutritious food.

As I started to describe, growing from seeds involves quite a few steps.  We started back in the cold days of February, planting seeds in small squares of seed-starting soil, about 1/4" deep  under the soil, and then placing the trays of planted seeds in a dark, warm place.  After a few days, the seeds sprouted, and were transferred to another room, where they were placed under lights, and left to grow a few inches, and extend their young leaves. We checked them each day, and watered when needed. Once they'd developed a couple sets of leaves, we transplanted the tiny plants into larger pots, and then kept them under lights for another couple weeks.  When they'd gotten quite bit bigger, we brought them downstairs, into the room we use as a barn, to "harden them off"--keeping them one week inside the barn, in cooler temps, with little water, and then another week getting acclimated to outdoors (each day, for a few hours more than the last).  Finally, they were planted out into the ground, with a row cover on top, and then given some more weeks to grow.  We've been checking them periodically for slugs and other pests, and protecting them as best we can.

In our consumer world, we typically are concerned with getting the most for our money, about getting things as cheaply as possible.  What farming is doing for me is reframing the "value" of an object.  Now, when I see a head of bok choi, I see hours of labor and love and care--and let me tell you, with all that in mind, putting a price tag on those greens is mighty hard.  Knowing the "back-story" means that I can't just think in terms of the cost of seed, the "inputs" of the greenhouse soil, the amount of water.  Knowing the back-story imbues something as simple as greens with a life history, a context.  The Sisters and I have invested our values--our respect for the ecosystem, our concern for health--into this head of bok choi.  The greens make those values tangible in the world--knowing the back-story makes these greens a manifestation of the life and the work of the Community of the Holy Spirit, of their commitment to Earth.

And did I mention that they're delicious, too?

salad days

We had our first salad of garden lettuces the other day, which was such a treat.  After months of "root cellar salad" and more recent salads made from sorrel and the leaves of the scorsonera root, we were able to enjoy soft, delicate lettuces once more.  

Almost everything we eat comes from our farm, which means that we've been waiting, with bated breath, for the asparagus, rhubarb, early greens, and perennial herbs like chives and parsley.  

Our larder is almost empty.  We've used up almost all our beans, almost all our corn, almost all our potatoes.  We've run out of the sauces and pestos we prepared last summer.  It's getting harder and harder to cook up a meal for eight or nine, and we're eating a lot of eggs.  So we're so thankful for these new green bursts of life that are popping up all over the garden, only to be whisked away to our kitchen!

And the last few weeks have been a culinary delight.  One of our new favorites is asparagus and rhubarb pizza.  Trust me, it's worth trying!  Simply cut fresh asparagus and rhubarb into small pieces (dice size), toss together in olive oil, salt, and pepper, and then place on pizza crust and top with grated mozzarella.  No sauce.  And what you get is an amazing flavor that's just indescribable.  I do believe this is the reason that the two vegetables appear at the same time, in the early spring garden.

But really, you can't go wrong with fresh young asparagus.  Raw, lightly steamed, tossed with scrambled eggs.   If you've got a little land, and plan on staying there at least five years, it's worth considering growing asparagus.  After the initial arduous work, you can look forward to harvesting this perennial vegetable for years to come with very little work.

Soon we'll be able to start harvesting kale, collard greens, bok choi, tat soi, and other greens.  These are going to be our mainstay for the next many months; I remember getting total collard green-fatigue by about mid-August!  It's so, so easy to leap ahead, to run right past theses first tastes of spring--to get caught up imagining the sturdy harvest baskets filled to overflowing, our backs aching, our minds racing with the question, "What to do with all these greens?!"  And all the zucchini, and tomatoes . . . how we dream of bushels of tomatoes, especially after the scant crop we had last year.  And tomatillos, and eggplants, and basil.  I look at the basil plants in the seed room, now growing up six, seven inches tall, and I picture being inundated with basil.  And the raspberries, blueberries, the peas and the beans . . . 

I remember the fatigue of late summer, when my muscles would protest:  "No more! This is too much.  I can't possibly harvest another leaf of kale, never mind eat it."  But now, at the very beginning of a new season, we are hoping and praying that this year's harvest will be that bountiful once again!  

In the end, the harvest will be what it will be.  We're doing our best, trying all sorts of new little experiments like companion planting to protect our plants from pests and to increase their yields, and we'll see what works and what doesn't.  In the end, it's just not in our hands.  In the end, we try to remember to savor each moment, to be present to that which we are actually experiencing, to revel in these first salad days.

reset

Sometimes I really get frustrated with myself. Even though I know which "habits" or practices feed me and make me grow, I can go for days, weeks, even longer, totally avoiding those things.  Why is this?  For example, just this week, I finally started getting up at 6 am again.  

Getting up early is a good thing for me.  It starts my day right, quietly, without any rushing around.  My brain is somehow more alert at 6 am than at 8 am.  The farm is quiet, the school next door still empty, and we are still in "the Great Silence," a monastic tradition of observing extended silent hours overnight--in our case, from 9 pm until after the singing of Lauds the next morning. 

The thing is, I'm not naturally an early riser.  I need to make myself go to bed early, which means eating a light dinner before 7pm, and starting to wind down at 8 pm.  That's a far cry from how I've lived these last 15 years in NYC, when it was common for me to get home from work/errands/gym/drinks at 8 or 9pm, and then start to make dinner.  Early rising takes discipline and determination. It means saying "no" to some things.

I was able to adapt to an early morning schedule last summer, when I first moved to the farm, and I loved it.  While our winter hours were a bit more relaxed, I began getting up before 6 am again during Lent, when I set out to write at least 1000 words every morning before the day's farmwork began. It was a great experience, and I proved to myself (yet again) how disciplined I can be.  And then, just as soon as Easter passed, I started letting myself sleep in, as a "reward."  

But, you know, I felt productive, energized, committed, and creative during those weeks that I was rising early and writing, and I started feeling dulled and blah as soon as I stopped.  What kind of reward is that? 

Perhaps you can relate.  Maybe your "rewards system" is a bit out-of-whack in its own way.  The mystery for me is why it takes me so long to remember that I actually do like it when I get up early, exercise, eat healthy.  That fresh veggies make me feel so much better than packaged sweets.  That sore muscles make me smile.  That laughing with friends is more rejuvenating than surfing the internet.  That making something myself is infinitely more satisfying than buying a mass-produced substitute.

It's like I don't have sufficient "sense memory" to keep me tethered to my good habits.  I suppose there used to be some rebellious satisfaction in "being bad," staying out all night, eating whatever I wanted, lazing around.  But that kind of satisfaction, as fleeting as it was then, is now long gone.  What I'm left with is an outdated, mind-less Pavlovian response to the notion of "reward."  

I'm going to be 40 soon, and I'm still unlearning.  From the spirituality of the farm, I'm unlearning consumerism, careerism, cynicism.  And now I suppose I'm unlearning unhealthy rewards.  I guess I'm just glad that I'm starting again.  It's time to reset my internal alarms, and remember again what's truly rewarding.  

Drenched

It's raining, after a hot couple of days.  The water is pattering on the roof, and it's soothing, sleepy, nourishing.  We've been planting like crazy, and I'm glad that the skies have opened up and are feeding the soil, and that we don't have to pump well-water through the sprinklers.  And through the open windows, I heard bird call, and then, a pounding, drilling noise.  Someone is building nearby.  And I think, angrily, aren't there enough buildings already?  Haven't we created enough stuff?  Isn't there a glut of houses on the market?

You know, we need a lot less stuff than we think we do.  Our microwave broke about a month ago.  We've been fine without it.  I gave up cable last year, then moved to the farm where there is no TV.  I don't miss it.  I have a couple pairs of jeans and a bunch of farm shirts and sweaters.  I have just a couple dressy clothes.  I love it.  It makes it easier to get dressed in the morning.  Fewer choices can be freeing.  I can feel myself shaking off the consumerist, materialist culture, like a wet animal trying to get dry...

I am deeply saddened, and so, so angry, about the oil "spill" in the Gulf of Mexico.  You know, the word "spill" just doesn't cut it--a spill is what happens when your glass tips over, or when your stack of books and papers falls over.  You "take a spill" when you trip and tumble to the ground.  Spill sounds small.  Spills sound like accidents.  Spills don't imply major consequences.

What we are witnessing unfold is a man-made, destructive, seaborne toxic event.  (Yes, that's a nod to Don DeLillo, for you White Noise fans out there.)  It's more than a leak; it was described today as "an underground volcano of oil," streaming out 200,000 gallons of oil a day.  Our technology and know-how aren't working--every effort to contain or reduce the effects of the toxic event has failed.  

It's not just an unfortunate part of living in today's world.  It's a result of negligence, arrogance, and greed.  Halliburton (remember Dick Cheney's buddies who got all those no-bid contracts for the war in Iraq, whose faulty workmanship led to the electrocution of soldiers while showering, whose profiteering has been the subject of much investigation and invective?) seems to be a likely culprit, in shoddy "cementing" of the rig.  But, to be fair, there's plenty of blame to go around.

The oil industry and its lobbyists have worked very hard to weaken regulations, including inspections and safety standards.  Nice job!  Thanks for that!  British Petroleum (BP) has recently had a particularly bad record.  In 2005, another accident killed 15 people. They were caught disabling a warning system, and were fined $50 million.  The list goes on.  It's too much to recite.  And it looks like there's something called an "acoustic switch" which is designed to activate in case of deep underwater leaks--this switch is mandated by other oil producing countries, but not by the US--because, according to environmental lawyer Mike Papantanio, the secret Cheney energy task force prevented the requirement of such switches.

And then there's us.  We are implicated in this disaster as well.  We've allowed our culture to become so intimately intertwined with all things petroleum.  Think about it.  Petroleum is everywhere.  Polyester clothes. Petroleum in our makeup (propylene glycol, parabens).  Petroleum in our pharmaceuticals.  Petroleum in our agricultural fertilizers ("petrochemicals").  Petroleum in our beds, off-gassing toxic vapors while we sleep.  Just try to live for a month without purchasing or bringing into your home any bit of plastic.  Petroleum is everywhere in our lives, because plastic is everywhere in our lives.  This problem is so much more than just gasoline for cars.  

And we know the costs.  We remember the Exxon Valdez.  We know about pollution.  I'm not even getting into the health and economic costs, the impact on fishermen, local communities, seafood lovers across the nation...  We know that oil is finite, and that eventually we'll have to find other sources of energy.  We know that the search for cheap energy leads us to foreign lands, to strange bedfellows, to war.  

Somehow we think it makes more sense to drill deep underwater, or try to wring oil out of tar sands, than to turn towards other solutions.  I've learned this year at the convent that the word "repent" doesn't mean just to feel remorse about something.  It means "to turn."  We need to turn toward a new energy future.  I've known that since I was in high school, now 25 years ago.  We've known this a long time.  This is not news, which is what makes it so sickening.

What are we doing, to ourselves, to this gift, to this creation?  Why do we believe we have the right to view Earth, our home, as a "resource"?  Are we that short-sighted that we can't imagine the consequences of full-bore extraction of minerals and oils and freshwater, damming of rivers and destruction of floodplains, clear cutting of forests and mountain-top removal, and dumping of toxins everywhere?  Who do we think we are that we believe our consumer way of life is more important than the health of this living planet, our only home?  

We are drenched in petroleum, no less than the birds and sea turtles in the Gult, who are coated with oil from this devastating toxic event.  Part of me thinks that our culture has a collective drive to coat every fiber of our lives in petroleum, and that this imperative has spontaneously manifested itself in the natural world...that all these creatures are physically drenched in the destructive longings of our culture.